Tag Archives: pregnancy envy

Too much trippin’ and my soul’s worn thin

I’ve been preparing for a “bad week” this week, what with the two year anniversary of my first loss. Even though you think you’re past it, and that it won’t be as bad as last year, the date just looms … Continue reading

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But your thoughts will soon be wandering, the way they always do

Time is passing, and it feels like it is passing me by. It’s been just over two months since we submitted our saliva samples for the study at Boston Children’s Hospital. It’s been over three months since our third loss. … Continue reading

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You can hear happiness staggering on down the street

Tuesday of this week brought the end of my 46 day cycle and the beginning of a new cycle. Last cycle was my longest cycle since going off birth control in May 2013. I don’t understand how, since loss #2 … Continue reading

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The Voice of the Sea

Last week was a week I’d rather just forget. First with all the dramatics of Sunday night, which spilled in to Monday. Monday morning  also brought news that someone I graduated with died in a motorcycle accident, not even half … Continue reading

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Of Course She Is (Angry Rant – Feel Free to Scroll Past)

Yesterday I ended up going to my friend E’s party – but not my family party. I just didn’t have it in me to deal with family yesterday, and we’re going on a family vacation next month and I will … Continue reading

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Annnnnnd we’re talking about your kids again

Today I went to a “Baby Sprinkle” for my best friend, M. M’s second daughter is due in early January. To read about my *awesome* (is there a sarcasm font?) reaction to her pregnancy feel free to click here. It’s … Continue reading

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Will it ever be my turn?!

I can’t believe freaking Serena van der Woodsen is probably going to give birth to a real life living baby before me. Really, life? Each morning I get an email from People as part of my subscription. It lists all the … Continue reading

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12w 2d

Two new pregnancy announcements on my Facebook newsfeed tonight.  One is M’s cousin, who was pregnant the same time I was earlier this year and lost her baby about a month before I did.  She has a 7 or 8 … Continue reading

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Time won’t let me go

So my last entry was about M and her pregnancy and my feelings about that. I didn’t write much about my weekend beach getaway, so here it is!   Really I had a lovely time. I drove up to the … Continue reading

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I’m just see through faded, super jaded and out of my mind

My beach weekend vacation was fun, until the ride home. My best friend M called me to tell me she is 11 weeks pregnant with her second child. She wanted to tell me in person, but I’ve been super great … Continue reading

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