Tag Archives: perinatal loss

730 Days

It’s been 730 days since I said goodbye to my first baby. 17,520 hours. That’s a lot of hours. I can’t believe it has been two years. Two fucking years. The longest and shortest years of my life (isn’t weird … Continue reading

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Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

October, while being Breast Cancer Awareness Month, is also Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. And today, October 15, is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. I have many thoughts in my head, many feelings in my heart and soul. … Continue reading

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This Never Happened

I don’t know how many people reading this have ever watched Mad Men. I love the sixties and it is one of my favorite shows. There’s a scene in the second season where Don visits Peggy after she gives birth … Continue reading

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Mothers Day

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Uncle

Today I was reading this post and it really…. sobered me. I don’t know of sobered is the right word to express how I feel, but it’s the only word that comes to mind. I think it’s made me feel this … Continue reading

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Lend me your ears and I’ll sing you a song, I will try not to sing out of key

Since my first loss I’ve struggled with most, if not all, of my relationships and specifically with my friendships. I’m not the same person I was before and thus my friendships aren’t the same as they were before. Pregnancy loss … Continue reading

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The last day of the worst year of my life*

Two weeks ago was the one year anniversary of my first loss. I was in Fort Lauderdale at the time of the “anniversary” (Aren’t anniversaries supposed to be happy occasions?). My week there wasn’t bad – it was nice to have … Continue reading

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Let it snow

January has came and (almost) gone. February is an important month on this journey I’ve been on for almost a year now. Last February (February 26, 2014 to be exact) is when we lost our first baby at 19 weeks. February … Continue reading

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Ashleigh, Massachusetts

Originally posted on 1 in 10:
Wife, daughter, sister, mother to two angels and two fur children. After five years of marriage, my husband and I decided it was time to add children to our family. After five months of trying, we…

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It’s not easy facing up when your whole world is black

So I have been having a really dark couple of days, starting Sunday. I’ve cried every day (Sunday, Monday, Tuesday)…. not today yet. Part of me thinks that perhaps my hormones are rushing around doing their thing and I’ll get … Continue reading

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