… to my blog!
This month (three days ago to be exact) marks my “Blogiversary” or “Blog Birthday”, whatever you want to call it.
I’ve really enjoyed blogging and the many wonderful people I’ve met, but it also marks four years since my first loss… wow.
Four whole years. Seriously?
I remember how time moved so.slow. It seemed like some days would never end. I would cry on my way to work, and cry on the drive home. I’d cry on the weekends. So many tears. It feels like so long ago.
And now….
It’s all different.
And now I have McLovin. He is my amazing little boy, an amazing little soul. With a charming little smile that melts my heart. Watching him grow, learn and change everyday is a gift and I do not take it for granted.
The happiness he brings is always at the forefront, but I still think of the babies I lost every day. The grief and pain is muted now, but it’s there. And the memory of when it was fresh and loud and all consuming is there, but I don’t call upon those memories often. It’s enough for me to know they are there.
Sweeping Up the Broken Pieces 
Happy Blogiversary! I am so glad that you’ve been here for the past four years, even as I’m sorry for all you’ve been through. And I am particularly happy that you now have McLovin’! I know there were some long dark days in there… thank goodness he was your light at the end of the tunnel.
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I’m almost at my 4 year anniversary too! I started blogging when we began the search for a gestational carrier. I can’t believe how much time has passed and how much has changed and I’m sure you feel the same. I’m glad that you have McLovin’ now, it makes it easier to look back on the past I think. ❤
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