Last year I wrote about how I wasn’t in the Christmas/holiday spirit. I was sad, angry and bitter and I just didn’t care. We put up zero decorations, didn’t send cards, didn’t even have a tree. After all that had happened earlier in the year I was so over it by the time December rolled around.
This year I have taken almost the opposite approach and I’ve been trying to throw myself into the holiday and immerse myself with all things Christmas. More so than any previous year. Which is kind of odd in a way considering I am an atheist, but whatever. I can still feel festive. Our tree is up, stockings are hung, the fake candles are in the windows, holiday cards are ordered from Shutterfly and should be in next week, shopping is almost done, Christmas music is on the playlist, and holiday movies are on the DVR. I’m even going to a holiday cookie swap later today.
So is it working? I’d say yes in the fact that it’s providing a distraction and keeping me busy. I also feel like I’m not so isolated – last year we were virtually the only house on our street with no decorations. Now I feel more like I belong and not the Debbie Downer of our cul de sac. Seriously, what am I doing to do? I can’t stop the holidays from coming. They come whether you like it or not or are ready or not. I’m not going to seriously pull a Grinch and steal decorations or something.