Monthly Archives: June 2014

Groove is in the heart

Posted on June 30, 2014 by andthewindscreamsmary

Based on my BBT charting I think I ovulated two weeks to a week and a half ago. That’s my best estimate.   So now I am in the middle of waiting for my period. Today is CD35. I am … Continue reading →

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Six Feet Under

Posted on June 30, 2014 by andthewindscreamsmary

Stop listening to the static. What the fuck does that mean? Nothing. It just means that everything in the world is like this… transmission. Making it’s way across the dark. But everything – death, life everything – it’s all completely … Continue reading →

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Time won’t let me go

Posted on June 27, 2014 by andthewindscreamsmary

So my last entry was about M and her pregnancy and my feelings about that. I didn’t write much about my weekend beach getaway, so here it is!   Really I had a lovely time. I drove up to the … Continue reading →

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I’m just see through faded, super jaded and out of my mind

Posted on June 25, 2014 by andthewindscreamsmary

My beach weekend vacation was fun, until the ride home. My best friend M called me to tell me she is 11 weeks pregnant with her second child. She wanted to tell me in person, but I’ve been super great … Continue reading →

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And you gotta keep goin’ down the long black road

Posted on June 20, 2014 by andthewindscreamsmary

Feeling down in the dumps and tired today and for the majority of the week. Today at work when I went to get my morning snack (just ended up being mint/lime infused water) I bumped smack into two of the … Continue reading →

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It’s hard to get by just upon a smile

Posted on June 14, 2014 by andthewindscreamsmary

Not too much to write about right now.  I’ve been having new fears and doubts about having a child. Every time I turn on the news I think to myself “Wow, do I want to bring another soul in to … Continue reading →

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At the edge of the ocean, we can start over again

Posted on June 10, 2014 by andthewindscreamsmary

One of the things we talked about in our group sessions was memorializing and grief keeping. How can we remember our children that we lost, that were never born or lived outside of us for only a few minutes?   … Continue reading →

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Beyond here lies nothin’

Posted on June 8, 2014 by andthewindscreamsmary

So what have I been doing since Tuesday?   Wednesday- work then 3.25 mile run after work Thursday – work, core fusion class – then had a headache after work and called it an early night Friday – work, then … Continue reading →

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Jack Bauer FTW

Posted on June 4, 2014 by andthewindscreamsmary

Today I was in a much better mood. I think because The Husband and I had that talk last night about moving forward and TTC again. I don’t like not having plans. I don’t like being aimless. I like to have … Continue reading →

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But those people keep a movin’, and that’s what tortures me

Posted on June 3, 2014 by andthewindscreamsmary

The Husband and I had a talk tonight about where we are and where we want to go with respect to the  “baby-making.” I feel like I needed to talk about it so we can both put it out there. … Continue reading →

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